Morning routine

I sewed for 1 1/2 hours this morning 

Trying to get a morning routine

No thinking just grabbing strips and bits 

Trying to make something 

The geese I had more rows so paired one with brown 

And the other with gold and white

Flying Geese may become a cute potholder

And more strips sewn into large crumb pieces

I will be able to cut them into blocks to use

Any color goes

Making lengths of fabric

Just because I can

Are you sewing anything fun?

 

Cranberry orange nutbread

 

A nice hot cuppa coffee

Some cranberry bread

And some cooling for the freezer for later enjoyment

Wish you had smellavision

The orange and cranberries and nuts

Aaaaaahhhhh

Good stuff

Passing the time

I was supposed to be back to work today

But the funeral home said I was exposed to covid

So I am quarantining till next Tuesday 

What's a gal to do

I pulled some little ducks I had and paired with

2.5 squares into rows

Grabbed a black jelly strip and sewed them up

Thinking maybe placemat for Dunks?

Then I spied the masks buried under something

Elastic was cut and ready

So sewed them up too

They are reversible

Came across odd strips and selvage and made little parts 

They will either become mug rugs or bag or parts

2 more masks done too

Right now the house smells yummy

Cranberry orange nut bread is baking

Yum

After all I hear vitamin c helps ward off covid right?

Just another day in the life 

What are you making?

I need to plan my 2022 projects

 

A little sewing

 

Sewed this into a pillow for sis in law

And this one

These for a niece

So cute

And these came too

So pretty

A little progress on the sewing front

Christmas this year

I decided to open some gifts that I received in the mail

This beautiful topper was received from Rosemary of the knitting quilter

WOW it's gorgeous Rosemary

I LOVE IT

 And some knitted slippers

Such a beautiful and thoughtful gift 

Thank you thank you thank  you

Then Julierose sent me some packages all labeled  for fun

You made me cry

I was looking for another of these panels and you found one

 My heart is full

Thank you so much Julue

You made me happy more than you'll ever know

The red truck!

You ladies know me so well

And some cute ornaments for my tree

Some fabric to play with next year

And a beautiful Christmas scarf

Thank you Barbara  of wonttobequilter

And Colette of whataboutreema sent this

A beautiful bag with the red truck on it

Some um quilting snacks in chocolate

And red truck notes

What? I am not eating chocolate for breakfast

Nope

Nothing in my mouth.......... it's in my belly lol

Thank you so much for your very special gifts

I love and appreciate each and every one of you

My special quilting  friends

You make quilting more fun

Love and hugs and kisses from me

Hope you all have a fabulous Christmas 

I tell you my son and daughter in law have been a godsend

We almost have everything all wrapped up as far as transfers and canceled cards and all that after death stuff

I go back to work next Wed and Thurs so that's ok

Dunkin and I will find a new normal 

It is very quiet and lonely

It feels like Rich is in the hospital or something  again

Still a few things to deal with

Waiting on ashes and funeral home for death certificates etc

I got some jewelry to hold ashes for daughter, granddaughter and me

And a cross for son

We will have a celebration of life at sister in laws house

My brother already said the truck drivers want to be there

Us gals will cook and make some of his favorite foods

And I guarantee there will be some Budweiser toasts to him 

Or blackberry brandy shots

Those were his favorites 

It will be Jan 15 so if you are inclined 

Say a prayer

Drink a toast

To a man who I will forever love and miss

Thanks

 

No joy this Chrustmas

One of my nieces sent me this beautiful arrangement because

On Dec 20 God called Richard.home

The hardest day in my life

I held his hand for 2 hrs as he passed during active dying stage

Not peaceful as they make you think

He was shaking in pain and rolling his eyes and trying to talk as I tried to let him know it was OK

I had given meds, nurse gave meds, no matter what he had terminal anxiety

My last images......ugh

I hope he is at peace and through suffering

The cat is lost

House has been rearranged so many times

People in and out

Dropping off things

Picking up hospice beds and things

Etc

Such a crazy Christmas time

One I certainly won't forget very soon

Everyone has been so sweet 

Inviting me here and there

But I think I just want to be alone

Alone to grieve

To feel his presence here

To just be

No fake smiles

No watching others be happy

No unnatural sleepovers etc

As others try to keep me from being alone 

I am sad

Not depressed Not suicidal

I just need space 

Is that weird?

Everyone seems to think I am not thinking straight 

I think I am where I need to be

 

Finishing up December

I really need to grab this out and get busy

But not much time when taking care of a loved one

Who will not be here much longer

BeddingLaundry.daily  And mixing meds are now part of my routine for his care. 

Today was told it could be as early as this weekend. He is failing fast.   A week and a half ago he was walking. Talking and joking.  Never take your time for granted. It can change in a blink

Crazy year crazy week

I love this guy

He has been by my side keeping me grounded

Nudging me for kisses

This year I lost my quilt buddy in Feb and now this 

Hardest job I ever have had to do

Take a front row seat and watch my love of my life fade away from me

He keeps saying he is sorry he us a burden

He is not a burden

I just can't do this without crying

We have been in shock

From the weekend waiting to get tests and lung issue solved to solve back pain

To Tuesday looking like a stroke and we'd being told he is coming home on hospice end of life care and he may make it thru the holidays

I am numb

Angry that we were blindsided

Frustrated that he can't tell me if he is comfortable or what I need to do

I feel like I am pumping him with pills but I know it takes the pain away

He doesn't eat or drink much now

He did have some of his fav meals that diabetes took away

Donuts? OK now  no insulin needed

Beer and alcohol on all these meds? OK if he wants some

Marijuana OK to help sleep

It's crazy

God bless the hospice people who are so nice and helpful

My husband and I had talked before all this so we know what he wants for final wishes

I hope my daughter gets here before it happens as he is weaker and not good 

Thank you all for your prayers at this time.

And for continued prayers after for my sanity will also be appreciated 

Tell someone you love them

Hug them tight

You never know when it will be the last time

With God's promises  and help I will get through this

I may need my quilting buddies support a little more too

Thanks for listening to this sad angry confused old lady

Love you 

 

Not a good week

 Tues hubs went to hospital with what we thought was stroke

The lesions are now in his brain.cancer has spread thru hi.

He is home with hospice orders to make comfortable

If I don't blog that I s why.its been crazy here

Great day with grands

Had a great day with the grands

They came to see Grampie

The little one Hunter makes me laugh

We always play LCR and the boys get to keep their winnings

He kept rolling safe allowing him to keep his money

He goes Grammie it's my hat

So I put on his hat and rolled safe

He goes I told ya

We walked up to the mailroom to put gifts there for residents to take

He saw the locked mailboxes and goes which locker is yours?

Lol

Then we were talking about friends and school

He is in 1st grade

He goes I have ten friends

So I Said ten GIRLFRIENDS?

He goes no one girl the rest boys but I don't want to talk about it

Oh to be innocent and six again.

Love my boys!!!!

 

Bear brother delivery

This is my gift from bear brother

Every year I get a beautiful wreath made by him

I

Love

It

So pretty

Door decorated........

Check

Are you checking off your list?

 

Trying to finish up

This was my tree empty

Was looking all over for Dunkin

Not in any of the usual places and not even coming to treats shaking

Hmmmm

Fast forward to filling up the tree with wrapped gifts

See how the back view is blocked?

Yeah he was back behind the gifts sound asleep under the tree

Soooooo cute

I should have taken a picture

Made me smile

Gotta finish up my plates

And boards

And deliver masks and magnets and hats and things to residents

Busy busy

Gotta get done early

Hubs not doing well

In pain 24/7 even with heavy meds

Tests tests and more tests yet no answers

He of course thinks he has cancer or something they are not seeing

Please pray and thank you 

God is good and our rock

 

Handmade Christmas

My sewing buddy niece that snuck me to Joannes made this for me

It's a gingerbread house she painted in memory of all the gingerbread houses we made in the past 

Love it! I can put a single bulb light in back to light it up too

Her Dad. My brother.....bear brother lol made me this one year

Every year it comes out to remind me of his love

Logs cut with his 2 hands and candle holes bored

Love this too

Excuse the sink photo.i have not put it in its place yet

Another niece made me this when she was 8

She is 29 and holding lol

Every year he comes out too

She has 2 younguns now and always asks for crafty ideas for them

Love my handmade gifts

Knowing that they came from the heart

Worth more to me than gold

Does your family do handmade gifts?

 

Dunkin hand me the tape

Dunkin.....

DUNKIN......

Where are you?

I need the tape to wrap gifts

Are you here???

Can never find good help

Lol

 

Some progress anyway

Lots to go

Are you covered in paper and tape?

More holiday fun

Bear brother. Aka wreath brother wanted to try something with his birch discs but needed something flat to glue to

Found this at Walmart 

To see if he could use

Anyone have fav candy from childhood?

Not sure if these are from New England area

Or all across country but these are one of mine

I could sit and eat these buggars till I am sick lol

Also love necco wafers made not far from me. And ribbons  candy too

I like the sweet ones like orange or lime instead of the spicy or minty ones

Look what I found

How cute would that be in a hot cocoa basket

Cocoa bomb, New cup, mug rug, these, fancy cocoa, mini marshmallows

Great gift idea for grands

Or fun loving adults too

And a jinglebell bracelet 

How fun is that

If I were working I would wear and get candycanes  for my truckdrivers

They love that 

Are you making holiday fun?